Wow, it’s been some time since I wrote a post. Sorry about that.

I go through patches of hyper motivation, and then other patches of extremely low motivation. Sometimes it’s in between, but the low motivation patches are the most frequent, and I hate that. I wish that I woke up every day and thought to myself “I want to write all day. I’m going to write 50 pages today, and finish my book by tomorrow.”

Honestly I wish I woke up every day and even just thought “today, I want to write.” Sometimes I don’t.

I’m not sure what causes my different moods surrounding writing. My partner, Julie, once called it a “man period” and honestly, that’s probably the best way I can describe it too.

I love writing. I want writing to be my entire career someday. Writing books, games, movies, plays, anything. So it baffles me that sometimes I just don’t want to do it. I’m not sure how to overcome it either, so it’s a problem. Another problem is that I don’t even know why I don’t want to do it. I’m not nervous that I’ll write poorly, I’m not unsure about what comes next in my novel, I’m not busy with other things. I just don’t want to write.

Maybe I’ll just force myself to write even on days that I don’t want to, or maybe I’ll get Julie to force me to do it. I’ve tried so many different things, honestly – setting goals, daily restrictions on other activities until after I finish writing, etc, but nothing works.

I know other writers feel this way too, so I’m not special, but I suppose I just wanted to talk about it for a bit and explain where I’ve been the past few days.